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I am the centre of my universe,
I am a tiny speck in the universe…

I drown in guilt with deadlines,
I procrastinate like no other…

I live here in the present,
I lose myself in memories…

I believe life is beautiful,
I dread waking up in morning…

I wonder what next,
I wander into past…

I am just a caterpillar,
I am the exquisite butterfly…

I wake up earlier somedays,
I sleep in till noon at times…

I am so organised with few,
I am most chaotic at many…

I dish out counsel, as if I conquered life,
I break down and dread to pick up myself…

I laugh louder with not a care,
I cry harder when it’s needed too…

I am an introvert to speak to others,
I am an extrovert to explore places…

I chatter incessantly to few,
I measure my words as few…

I am an explosion that brightens the sky,
I bury my head like an ostrich in earth…

I am just like you,
I am as unique as you..

I am many parts of one,
I am more than sum of my parts!

I am an oxymoron!
I am an epitome!

Keepsakes?!

There are so many collectibles around to collect and I’ve had many hobbies including stamp collection and coin collection.

But there is one weird collection amidst that which even I don’t understand as to why I started collecting them.

To this day, I couldn’t throw out the collection from almost a decade back.

Oh my collection is bus tickets! I commuted through bus during my college days and if I could date them, I might check my attendance to college.

Alas, I don’t keep them organised in any way. But there are about three boxes fully packed with those.

To this day, I could never fathom the meaning of why I did, what I did nor have the heart to throw them away. I know I should definitely declutter my useless keepsakes.

I have started throwing away most of the useless things despite great memories. But, this is one thing I couldn’t throw away yet.

I’ve stopped collecting them when they shifted to the printing system, for those prints faded with time. Now, my collection has become a relic as the system of pre printed tickets is almost extinct.

So what’s weird in your collection?

Good Night or Good Knight?!

There is a secret handshake or something unique, each kid creates when they are young, and few sustain the time and others are lost. Those lost memories, when revived add a smile to the self and sometimes may earn the awkward reaction, from the listener.

My mother tongue is Tamizh, a language which doesn’t have the concept of ‘silent’ characters as much as English. And for a kid starting to spell the words, that is a bit complicated concept to grasp. One such complicated word for me was “Knight”. The word was introduced by the brand name “Good Knight”, the mosquito coil, before it was introduced to me by school.

So on that day of introduction, at night, I said, “Good Knight.”
But how do you differentiate between the night and knight, while saying it out aloud?
Hence, Good night was followed by “Gooduk night” (Yeah, that’s how the toddler me pronounced it!)

And from then on the following became my father’s and my Good night routine.

Good Night
Gooduk Night
GK
GN

And for years it was exchanged daily and with time it was forgotten, until my sister was in school. And by then, she knew how to pronounce “Knight” and lots more. Also, we have changed the brand of our mosquito repellent to “All Out”

So when we narrated this story, she asked why stop with one brand and created a new big series for exchange and she tells them in the same order every single time without any interchange. The List grew into…

Good Night
Gooduk Night
GK
GN
Good Knight
All Out
Mortein
Martin Cooper
Albert Einstein
Issac Newton
GOOD NIGHT

Wondering from where did all those people come? Or have you guessed it rightly that was the day, she learnt the name of those scientists and she started linking with the phonetics of Mortein-Martin…

And thus Newton and Einstein came into our everyday lives! Who would have guessed.. 😉

A leaf from my diary!

A hobbit never returns the same after an adventure.
A human never returns the same after an exciting trip.

That’s what’s happening to me now..
The practice of writing everyday has changed..
Have loads of fun stories to share,
And have few wonderful clicks to flaunt,
Yet, now, doing none of it..

Because, I’m relishing the comfort of being back..
There is a joy in going away
And there’s another kind of joy in coming back..

For now, this seems to be heaven,
Lazing around,
Slowly catching up with the virtual world
Ticking off the pending lists..

And on top of the list is,
Another new post for tomorrow!
Phew..
Yeah that’s my reaction when I started rambling
And once again a phew!!
For this ramble could fill in as a post for the day..

So just not to let you totally disappointed,
Here’s another click of a leaf..
Which will also suit as ‘the last leaf’

Almost the end of leaf at almost the end of the day!

As you get bored with my ramble
Or mesmerized by my leaf,
Lemme clear out the foggy laziness
Cluttering my hazy brain,
And come with a good post for tomorrow!!

Keep waiting
And don’t forget
To smile and gift a smile!!

What sails my boat!

I was fiddling with this post, when I realized I was just babbling and scribbling. So went over to reader and was picking posts for reading randomly.. And that’s when I landed up on the so logical justification for following pessimism as one’s way of defense by a little doll with glasses.

The example stated for explaining made me nostalgic and reminded me of my way of thinking in the past and now.

Once, not too long ago, I too was so certain of failing in my head, even when I’ve been putting up some top class efforts, with pretty decent and at times good results. This has helped me from any possible heart breaks. But now I’ve crossed a bit from that place, and when I look back, the perspective differs widely.

I feel that I’ve been restricting my talents and my possibilities with all the what-if and what-would-be happening just in my mind. I’ve never stepped out of my comfort zone, for I was busy saving my ship from wrecking in the storm, by not sailing in the high seas at all.

Now, I wish to think, I’m wiser with the thought, it is better to sail and sink, rather than, stay and stink.

I was slowly getting used to this idea, and I read the book “Journey is my Path” during such transition. And there is a chapter around the end of the book, which just assured me, I’m traveling in the right path to overcome my fears. Fears- yes, not just pessimistic attitude, because that is just one of the many colourful names and excuses, I have been saying out. When you cut through all that crap, what lies in the core is just the fear, in its primal form. (So that’s one of the reason, that made me love this book so much 😉 And it’s a pity I could not choose just few lines to quote, as the whole chapter is very dear to me.. 😉 )

So where I stand, right now, could be summed up as, I still think of all the what-if and what-would-be only to make sure that, they aren’t surprise attacks and to get prepared for all those scenarios. And thus the life has become more cheerful and there’s a contentment at heart. Because, I know I’ve prepared for all possible outcomes and have done everything that is to be done by me.

And I have realised that, fretting over the outcome is just a rocking chair, which keeps me in motion without moving me forward. So I chose to just give out what I can in the present and neither get struck in the past or lose myself in silly imaginations. This seems to workout so well for me, as I have more smiles on my face and have a boost to my courage to face the consequences of my acts..

Choosing what suits is the best solution for smiling and spreading the smiles.. 🙂

What sweeps you off your feet?

I have intended to write a cool big story (That’s what I think about it) for today’s post. But I got way distracted from my routine for the past few hours..

I was swept off the floor / transported to an alter world / something otherworldly (Hope you get the drift now?!) by this certain something.. What I am telling is, I have forgotten to eat, sleep and even drink water.. I was deaf and dumb to the happenings around me..

Have you ever been mesmerised so completely with anything? If not, I could bore you with more adventurous words and exclamatory statements of my awe!!

But since this special thing has got me hooked way too much, I just dropped in to let y’all know, I am still sane and haven’t forgotten y’all totally.. 😉

They say that if you do something for a continuous 21 days it becomes a habit.. Guess, that’s true.. 😉 What else could have dragged me back to surface to key in few words to you!

And depending on your liking of my writing, you are saved for the day or just miss my not-so-funny-at-times-coz-it-is-ought-to-be-taken-seriously post or just be content with this ramble.. 😉

Now it is time for feedback.. Few of you have been dropping by every single day and hitting the like and few words to say what you think.. Thanks to you for really following my posts.. 😀 Now, be kind and tell me what I am good at and where I could improve.. I am awaiting to see your replies this time.. And please don’t feel shy at all to criticise away my narcissism or boost my ego by praising my awesomeness.. 😉

Fine, now my love is inviting me back and am going back to this new found bestie-love of “Windows 10” combined with “Office 365”.. It is just way too awesome..

And if you are not feeling like praising me (or criticising me) just drop in to say what is that mesmerises you and keeps you hooked up from your routine.. I love to know about (especially) the crazy ones too..

C’mon type away at least the grin or frown that crossed your face while you read through this ramble.. (Nah, I am not desperate for comments.. I just want to know your view! [Hope that’s a good excuse.. 😉 ] ) Please do type a smiley that reflects your current mood at least please.. 😉 [I repeat I am not desperate for your comments.. 😛 Thanks for not believing that.. 😉]

What prevents a plan’s success?

What is success?
The GoogleLord says, “the accomplishment of an aim or purpose.”

What is the aim or purpose?
Of course, it differs from person-to-person as well as from task-to-task.

So could we generalise it?
Let’s try, Mostly, we start doing a task either voluntarily with all our heart or just out of compulsion of various factors.

Yet, irrespective of the cause, we have a compelling desire to succeed with the task we do. We rarely set to work with the notion to fail, unless you are competing against a kid.. Still there you are succeeding by letting the kid win, which is the purpose of competing with the kid..

So, did you notice that two people doing the task of playing together have completely different motives and hence it is a win-win for both involved?

Fine, let us move on to complicated things now..
Complication is again a matter of perspective and depends on the person’s level of expertise on that matter.. Yup, it doesn’t depend on age, education but experience and the knowledge of using it effectively with the need of the hour.

Anyway, moving on to things which need expertise of some level..

What do we do, if it is a task we take up voluntarily?
We put our heart and soul into it and work tirelessly till we get satisfied with the outcome or till we are torn apart from it by various factors..
Fine, that is the best way to do anything and there is no more to discuss upon it right now..

Then are we wrapping up?
Not yet.. 😛

Right, You got a task to do and are committed to it..
So, are we on to success right away?
Still No..

Why is that?
Simply because there are too many factors affecting us due to us being social animals and every other non monumental and trivial reasons affecting a plan for your success..

Now let us stop saying lies to ourselves and answer this..
Are they the real reasons preventing us from success?
Are you sure that they are not silly excuses?
Are they all always that hard to break through?
If we put little more, just a little more effort, can’t we achieve it??
Just one more try?

Isn’t there a tiny voice inside your head murmuring, atleast a maybe, even if it is not a loud Yes?

So what really stops us, from going that extra mile?
Brace yourself and accept this!
YOU and Your Thoughts!!

Have we not done almost miracles, just because we really wanted it?
That is what I am repeating..

Here is a quote to justify this big ramble..

வினைத்திட்பம் என்ப தொருவன் மனத்திட்பம்
மற்றைய எல்லாம் பிற. [திருக்குறள் 661]

Transliteration: 
Vinaiththitpam Enpadhu Oruvan Manaththitpam
Matraiya Ellaam Pira

Translation:
Execution focus lies in the resolve of the mind;
all else is secondary. [Couplet 661]

Hope the translation says it all!